Blogging instead of eating junk

I am going to blog whenever I'm thinking about eating something unhealthy. Maybe this will help me not eat it.

Recommitment

Been so long since I've blogged. Making a recommitment to health. Put only healthy foods in my body and exercise at least 15 minutes a day.

My heart is breaking

My heart is breaking because my daughter's feelings are hurt by a friend of hers. Emily has been looking so forward to this friend staying over tomorrow night, and tonight the friend said she couldn't because she had a party. Emily was so upset and sad. But I think my heart is broken more because I can't stand seeing her sad.

It's not fun

It's not fun to count calories and forcing myself to exercise, but I'm doing it because I have to! It will be fun to see the scale go down. It will be fun to buy smaller clothes. It will be fun to have more energy. It will be fun to not worry about fitting into amusement park rides, movie seats, and airplane seat belts. And maybe as my body changes, I won't have to count calories, and exercising will be more fun.

Scale was up again today, and I'm starting to feel as if I won't lose this weight. I'm eating about 1500 calories for the most part and walking 16 minutes 6 days a week. Oh, right strength training, better go do that. An make the decision to not put anything into my mouth that sabotages weight loss.

Alcohol

Had a bad day today (food wise). Teacher breakfast at school, lunch was fine, but after school, I went to happy hour and had TWO margaritas and chips and the alcohol really affected me to the point that I didn't care what I ate. Need to be better prepared for this next time. Tomorrow's another day and I WILL do better!

Not letting a gain throw me off

I was up two pounds this morning. No reason for it - I've been doing good eating wise and exercising (except strength training), so I don't know why I gained, but I didn't let up today - tried to remember that if you keep eating well and exercising, you WILL lose weight. So I did pretty well today.

Tomorrow's another day to lose some more!

I only have about 200 calories left for today and we're going out to eat. If I'm hungry at all, I'm going to go over, and since I plan on having a frozen margarita, that alone will put me over. So, I guess I need to try not to eat and if I do, make it just a little. How did I get to this point? It was those two pizza hut meat lover's pieces I ate. At 480 calories each!! Also, a small piece of cake. I need to remember this when I'm at dinner tonight. I really don't need any more calories today.

3 more gone! It's easy to stay on track when the scale keeps going down. I've got to keep eating right and exercising when the scale doesn't budge or if it shows a gain. Because sometimes, it takes awhile, but if I keep at it, it has no choice except to go down.

2 pounds gone!

Finally, a loss! This is what I need to remember when I'm doing well eating-wise, and the scale stays the same, or even goes up a pound - eventually, I will lose weight if I don't stuff and lay off the sweets. I didn't eat any chocolate chip cookies that Emily made the other night, and it paid off - EVENTUALLY! Keep this up, and eventually, I will be thin instead of staying fat.

I've also added a nightly plank-20 seconds last night and an every other night arm weights.

Motivation doesn't matter

My job is to lose weight, do I do what it takes whether I feel like it or not.

Getting back on plan

So, I did fairly well today.
One donut, cereal
Chicken, lettuce, avocado, cheese, dressing
Baked potato with pork

And I did not eat even one chocolate chip cookie that I helped my daughter make-I feel like I should get to at least not gain as a reward for that...

I didn't weigh myself this morning, but ever since I saw 249, I've only seen 250. I ate pretty badly Saturday, so I'm just hoping for 250 again tomorrow. Am I really going to lose weight again? I will if I eat less and exercise- I would have to! I've started doing a little strength training, but not any cardio lately. I've got to remember how good I was feeling with my loose jeans and get back to that-it was only a few days ago!

Say oh well

If you want something that will keep you from losing weight, you are not allowed to have it - just tell yourself "oh well", and think of something else.

Strengthen your resistance by saying no

That's another thing Beck mentions. She says that every time you go ahead and cave to your cravings, you are strengthening your "giving in" muscle. But when you say no, you strengthen your "resistance" muscle. It's true. Every time you give in, it makes it easier to give in again next time. But after a few days of resisting, it gets easier to resist. Now I don't have near the struggle saying No to myself as I used to. Which muscle do you want to strengthen? Think about it.
(taken from escape from obesity blog)

Today hasn't been such a good eating day :(
Doughnut
Cake
2 pieces pizza
Caesar salad
House salad
Chicken fried chicken
Green beans
2 rolls
Peach cobbler a la mode

Why so bad today? That cobbler's been calling my name since Monday - every afternoon I would tell myself I was going to eat it after dinner and then, after dinner, I would be full enough that I would put it off. Tonight was it - I wanted it, and figured I'd been good long enough. I must do better though.

Enthusiasm instead of sluggish

Feeling better and clothes feel looser! I love this feeling... I know I still have a ways to go, but I don't feel sluggish or stuffed or unenthusiastic like I do when I eat too much....I feel hopeful and good when I eat less. I know I've said something like that before, but it's worth repeating for myself because i don't want to go back.

Something else. I've always been an all or nothing person. I can't imagine losing weight if I cheat a little bit. If I want it, I have to be pretty close to perfect about trying to get it.

1 pound down

Scale says I lost a pound. I thought it would because it had held steady for two days and I had been eating really well - no junk, three meals, no snacks, etc.

Now, here is where it gets harder...... If I stay the same or gain, can I keep the low calorie eating going, without giving up? Or will I resort to old habits and gain more? Nope! I owe it to myself, my kids, my husband to have success.....never, never, never, never quit!

How someone did it without exercise

As my weight loss buddy Ken is fond of saying, "Small Changes Over Time = Results." He is so right! And he knows what he is talking about. Ken used to weigh 293 pounds. He was determined to lose weight, and started in on his plan. A month went by of him staying on plan... and he did not lose a single pound!!! Two months, three months... still... he stayed the same weight! How many of us would give up WELL before 3 months?? But Ken, bless his heart, kept right on going. He stuck with it, made his small changes over time, and in month 4, he lost 1 pound. Yeah, that's right, 1 pound!! Would you be pulling your hair out? Would you binge? Where do you think Ken is 21 months later? I will tell you. Because of his small changes, and because he persisted through all that time of non-losing, Ken has lost over 100 pounds and weighs 188 pounds! And do you know what? He did this WITHOUT weight loss surgery, WITHOUT diet pills or gimmicks, and WITHOUT EXERCISE!!! What?? Yes, that's right. He did it without exercise. He has a health issue that prevented him from exercising. He did all of this with small changes, over time. He got results.

If you want to succeed, you cannot quit! AND magic numbers

220 - how much I thought I was when I got weighed back in March. Found out I was 35 more....Yuck!

199 - onederland!

Every new tens in the one hundreds - each one seems like such a new chapter

150 - 100 lost!

120 - weight when I got married - not sure I'll make it to this again and that's ok


From a blog I read....

As my weight loss buddy Ken is fond of saying, "Small Changes Over Time = Results." He is so right! And he knows what he is talking about. Ken used to weigh 293 pounds. He was determined to lose weight, and started in on his plan. A month went by of him staying on plan... and he did not lose a single pound!!! Two months, three months... still... he stayed the same weight! How many of us would give up WELL before 3 months?? But Ken, bless his heart, kept right on going. He stuck with it, made his small changes over time, and in month 4, he lost 1 pound. Yeah, that's right, 1 pound!! Would you be pulling your hair out? Would you binge? Where do you think Ken is 21 months later? I will tell you. Because of his small changes, and because he persisted through all that time of non-losing, Ken has lost over 100 pounds and weighs 188 pounds! And do you know what? He did this WITHOUT weight loss surgery, WITHOUT diet pills or gimmicks, and WITHOUT EXERCISE!!! What?? Yes, that's right. He did it without exercise. He has a health issue that prevented him from exercising. He did all of this with small changes, over time. He got results.

Remember Why!

If discipline is remembering what you want, I need to be able to remember. In no particular order:

1. Ride an airplane without wondering if the seat belt will fit.

2. Be able to ride fair rides with my kids and fit in the ride.

3. Fit in all chairs - movie theater downtown, etc.

4. Have energy to play with my kids.

5. Lower cholesterol which is too high.

6. Don't want to miss out on my kids growing up because I'm too tired to pay attention.

Why the title?

I'm calling this blog "Feeling Hungry" because that's what I need to feel everyday in order to become an acceptable weight.

I almost needed a seatbelt extender on our airplane trip in December. How embarrassing! And then, a few days later, I'm pretending to myself that I don't have a problem. Just changed the title to "No more pretending" -

Why the title?

I'm calling this blog "Feeling Hungry" because that's what I need to feel everyday in order to become an acceptable weight.

I almost needed a seatbelt extender on our airplane trip in December. How embarrassing! And then, a few days later, I'm pretending to myself that I don't have a problem. Just changed the title to "No more pretending" -

It's hard!

I did pretty well today - in addition to my list, I had about 4 small pieces of pizza. But it was hard to deny myself cobbler and ice cream. I think I only did it because I went shopping at Kohl's and had to see how much my stomach sticks out in the fitting room mirror and how tight shirts are on my arms. If I hadn't gone clothes shopping, I would have eaten the cobbler, and would have slowed my progress. Got to change habits, and it's hard! Some days are easier than others, but today was a day that would have been easy to slide back into bad habits, and I didn't. YES!!!

So far...

Cereal
Cheese
Grapes
Chicken
Bread

Down some

Just had some cobbler and ice cream. I don't feel too badly about it because I don't feel stuffed, just full. But I need to get eating even better and less this week. I think I'm down to 249. Discipline is remembering what you want.

Every second

Every single second, minute, hour and day is an opportunity to improve on something or change a bad habit. What are you waiting for? No excuses! (from HealthyFitFamily.com)

Gotta keep at it

I've been doing really good the past few days with not eating very much. So, I decided to weigh myself, which I haven't done in a long time. In March, I got weighed at a health assessment at work, and was SHOCKED at the big number. I don't even want to type it (even though nobody reads this), but here goes......255- I KNOW! Tonight was 257 I think. I must have been higher than that because I have been doing really good.

Must not let this get me down. I'm going to keep feeling better by not stuffing myself.

Feeling better already

I feel so much better when I don't eat very much. Stuffing myself makes me feel stuffed - yuck!

Better today

Cereal
Bite of muffin
Fajitas
Pork and potatoes

Now it's 8:12 and I need to refuse dessert.

Haven't been exercising. Need to start that soon too.

Cake

I had a piece of cake at lunch today. I tried to talk myself out of it, but I reasoned that I only had one fajita, so I might be hungry. I've got to get where I am completely serious about being thin for good. Starting now.

Trying to remember.....

Did pretty well today... I picked up a package of vanilla cream cookies that were in the teacher lounge for teacher appreciation week, but I returned them unopened after thinking about my goals of being thin and healthy. I have some habits that definitely need breaking, so I need to stay focused on my goal!

In order to succeed.....

You have to have the discipline to remember what you want.

I want to be thin and healthy, so....

I have to remember this when I'm eating, so that I don't let myself overeat or eat unhealthy foods that are a waste of calories.

Panic

Last night I had a dream that it was Christmas Eve and the only gifts I had bought were for my kids. Nothing for Jim or my mom at all!

Food Log

2 brownies
Banana
Pasta and chicken


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Jim's Facebook Status tonight

Jim Shaw
Kate Middleton might be the second most beautiful bride I've ever seen. (I watched the royal wedding on DVR tonight with the first.)

(I've got to remember lines like these!)

School

No more snacks in my desk at school!

Eating healthy

I've got to start eating healthy foods only. You feel better if you eat better, right!?