My heart is breaking

My heart is breaking because my daughter's feelings are hurt by a friend of hers. Emily has been looking so forward to this friend staying over tomorrow night, and tonight the friend said she couldn't because she had a party. Emily was so upset and sad. But I think my heart is broken more because I can't stand seeing her sad.

It's not fun

It's not fun to count calories and forcing myself to exercise, but I'm doing it because I have to! It will be fun to see the scale go down. It will be fun to buy smaller clothes. It will be fun to have more energy. It will be fun to not worry about fitting into amusement park rides, movie seats, and airplane seat belts. And maybe as my body changes, I won't have to count calories, and exercising will be more fun.

Scale was up again today, and I'm starting to feel as if I won't lose this weight. I'm eating about 1500 calories for the most part and walking 16 minutes 6 days a week. Oh, right strength training, better go do that. An make the decision to not put anything into my mouth that sabotages weight loss.

Alcohol

Had a bad day today (food wise). Teacher breakfast at school, lunch was fine, but after school, I went to happy hour and had TWO margaritas and chips and the alcohol really affected me to the point that I didn't care what I ate. Need to be better prepared for this next time. Tomorrow's another day and I WILL do better!